Alec in Wonderland

Valerie spread the blanket over the grassy field. She arranged the snack, lit up the candles and lay on the ground while listening to Alec’s favorite songs. She fell asleep holding a bouquet of flowers in her hand. She has been busy these past few months and she can definitely fall asleep in an instant. Continue reading

To Be Unseen

“I can’t be with you. I’m sorry!” He said showing no compassion on his face. “Please go! Sara will be home soon.” He opened the door revealing a more messed up world outside.

His words crushed my heart as the raindrops from a distance splattered on the ground.

“But… You said you love me…” I uttered, my voice cracking.

He couldn’t look into my eyes.

“Yeah, I should have never said that…” He sighed as he held my face with his cold hands. “I like being with you. You make me happy. You make me do things I never thought I can do. I mean, you make me feel young again, but that’s it.”

That’s it?

“What is wrong with me then? Why can’t you love me back?” I screamed trying to hold back the tears from falling.

“Nothing. You are really perfect, Amy… but I can’t live without Sara. I don’t want to lose her.”

That’s it then! He doesn’t want to lose her, so he rather lose me.
I swallowed my pride just to be with him even though I know I’m just an option. I love him and did everything for him so he can love me back…

I guess it’s my fault, too. I allowed him to make me his second choice. How can he love me then when I can’t even love myself?

I walked out the door without looking back, mind’s floating. I never felt so devastated in my life. I want to disappear. I want to be invisible. I am nothing to him anyway.

I looked at the gray sky as the raindrops touched my face one by one.

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What a jerk! I whispered as I crossed the street ignoring the “don’t walk” sign in front of me.